I know U not by my side,,but still in my heart ^^v

Errrr...I wanna tell you 'bout ma' lovin' life :)

I enjoyed ma' life,,,no matter it always have probs hahaha. . .

But I love every seconds in ma' life,,

enjoy laugh,, try enjoy tears,, with lovers and haters around me!!!!!!

Well, my family life's was not too gud rite now,,

but I guess its still cool,,

My beloved dad :)  He's d' only important guy for me ( rite now haha )

 well,,his so patient,,kinda dad who can be a brotha for his daughter and I'm happy with it.

 I can count by my finger how often he angry with me in a year!!!! LOL hahaha

My annoying sista,,hahaha there's always be fight everyday,,but believe or not,,we neva' take it seriously,, just joke then we hit,,grab hairs each other,,and a minute after that we laugh again hahaha,. I miss her rite now,,She is soooooo ANNOYING,,but I miss her :)

                    My beloved mom,,ssssstttt she tweet just like lady birdy hahaha,,but Im sooooooo thankfull to Jesus,,coz I still hev fussy mom who yelled every morning to woke me up ( when I was in school ).

Well,, I hev beloved friends too :) I kinda type of  introvert girl,,so its hard for people to be my close friend. Is neva' easy for me to trust somebody. But this girls,,,weewww!!! Such as crazy girls,,they just like a big BIG magnet and pulling me in their friendship life  :{D
Well,,I have many friends,,buts this 3 gurls below is my closest friend,,moreover,we called our friendship "Lollipop" LOL hahaha. We meet when I was in high school,grade XII ips 2.

Besty,,well U can called her "tuth" hahaha,,just like sound of train :) She so fussy just like a lady birdy,,tweet there and than tweet here. Sometimes I got bored when she start to disputed little things. Get mad for something non sense ( honestly,its annoy me ) but she attracted to the same thing with me. Just like reads comic,watch thiller,,action,,and actually we attracted to unique stuff too. Actually,she such a cutie gurl,. Shes cool to be friend :)

 This is Adit,,I like to called her "madam" hahaha...When U see her for the first time,,maybe U will thought that she is kinda of "Ms.Unprobs" but I know its not her. She looks so tough,but inside,,she just a fragile girl. Shes cried when she mad,. But I tell ya' somethin',,she is sooooo gud-hearted person I ever meet,. :)

 Just called her nisonk,. Hahaha I dont know why she caleed like that,,her name is nisa. Well,,she will got bored when me,besty and adit read comics,,coz we will discuss it alllllllllllll the timeeeee...whereas she very very VERRYYYYY not interested with it hahaha....One thng I like about her is she likes to laugh without reason LOL!!!!

Im in college now,,not in my hometown at Palu,,I move in Jakarta,,its hard for me,,,really hard.
I move in this town coz I wanna fight off with all my probs,,but its not a gud way out. Now my dad and my sista stay together at my hometown and me and my mom stay here and boarding "kost" in the different place. I stayed with my grandma rite now,. 

Girls,,I miss U,,I wanna go home to meet U all again,,but Im afraid,,afraid to facing my problems,. I too afraid when I back home,,I cant see my mom and dad together,. Its..its just so hard to me,,but I miss U all,,I miss U,,more than U can think,,more than I can say,,I miss U,,I really do  :(

Life won't get better when Ur tears flow through Ur cheek,,its get better when U have better reaction..

Well,,terkadang sekuat apapun qta,,

ada saat2 dmna qta merasa ga mampu untuk ngadepin semua masalah yang datang,,

ada saat2 dmna air mata yg slama ini dgn sekuat tenaga tertahan,, ga mampu dbendung lagi,,

bahkan terkadang ada saat2 dimana kita berpikir untuk memilih jalan pintas untuk solusi dari masalah kita,,

but..I just wanna say,,Ur not alone,,,NEVER alone,.

Just like me,,

aq bkan orang yg sempurna,,

aq berkali - kali jatuh,,terluka,,menahan sakit,,

but U know what??? Hidup tidak akan berhenti saat km merasa masalahmu terlalu besar untuk kw selesaikan sendiri.

Hidupmu terus berlanjut,,waktu masih terus berjalan,,dan bumi masih tetap berputar..

Trust me,,masih banyak orang yang menanggung beban lebih berat darimu,,

Lalu,,kalo memang ada orang yang menanggung beban lebih berat darimu,,

kenapa km harus menanggung bebanmu??

1) Itu karna Tuhan tau km kuat,,,Dia tau sampai mana batas kemampuanmu,,

     klo memang kamu merasa kamu tidak mampu lgi,,itu OMONG KOSONG!!! 

     Ure strong,,stronger than U ever think,,

2) Itu yg membuatmu lebih kuat menghadapi hidup,,

    Klo km minta kesabaran,,Tuhan tdak akan lgsg memberimu hati yg tabah,,

    Dia akan mengujimu,,untuk apa?? Untuk membentuk dirimu,,karaktermu,.

Aq hidup dan tumbuh dengan berbagai masalah,,

aq down,,aq kecewa,,aq terluka,,

tapi sejak aq mengenal Yesus,,

aq sadar,,dengan merengek ataupun meratapi,,semua itu tidak akan memperbaiki keadaanku,,

tidak penting bagaimana aq jatuh,,tidak penting bagaimana aq membuat kesalahan,,

yang membedakannya adalah reaksi yang benar,,

jika aq jatuh dan memmberi reaksi yang salah dengan hanya meratap dan menyesali,,

yang ku terima hanyalah hidup dengan hati terluka selamanya,,

tp jika aq merespon dgn benar dgn berpikir positif dan terus bertahan,,
aq yakin,,, 

suatu saat nanti,,semua usahaq akn membuahkan hasil,.. :)

Aq prnah merasa down,,aq pernah bahkan sering merasa kecewa,,merasa tidak sanggup lg menanggung beban,,

tp aq g boleh terpuruk,,aq tdk boleh trlalu lama meratap,,
Teman,,aq tau,,ini bukan akhir,,ini masih proses,,, 

but I must,,I always and keep fight n survive with Jesus Christ :)

God bless U,teman ^^/